And two tube exhanges later...

So I've had two more tube exchanges since the last time I posted, one the next day, and one just this morning. It's only been a day under two weeks between exchanges this time, which is better than a week and a half, I guess. The last exchange hurt quite a bit but I had no soreness afterward, which was amazing and wonderful. And this time it REALLY hurt. But they did put in a size larger tube in the hopes that I can go a bit longer between exchanges. Now I'm waiting for the urine culture to see if there's another infection. I think there is. There have been two infections already. I'm really ready to be done with all of this. I'm reaching the limits of my ability to deal with this. It feels horrible to say that, though. I'm hanging in there for Sean and will continue to do so, but if there continue to be complications, I'm not sure it's worth it to keep going in this way. I'm getting more stressed, and infections seem to keep cropping up, and I'm already on antibiotics. I want a second opinion about the risks of removing the stone and tube. I think the risks of continuing the way we have are no longer lower than the risks of going in to get it. But I'm not a professional. At this point I'm just hanging in there and trying to be grateful for everything that's going right, which is Sean's health and growth. Of course, since he's breech, I'm working on convincing him that's not as comfortable as head down. But he's an active happy baby, so that's a big blessing.